28 February 2011

Ars Poetica.

A poem should not mean
But be


That's a famous couplet up there and you should know it. Read the whole poem here and take a look at this poetry site. I'm currently in Poetry now and one of our in-class assignments was to discuss the "Art of Poetry" as we experience or relate to it. I wrote this:

Ultimately, poetry is a recognition and tribute to the senses. The difficulty here arises in the complexity of our senses, for they are indubitably fallible and incomprehensible. Even the body expressing said sentiments cannot understand them fully; therefore poetry becomes instantly a very philosophical endeavor with regards to the common dilemma (or beauty, really) of the impossible and the necessary.
Impossibility lies within our handicaps with language. If it may occur (which it certainly does) that the poet's own self cannot fully understand what is expressed, or express what is believed to be understood, there exists no way completely correct or incorrect to approach, create, and decipher poetry. There are, however, very bothersome techniques in regards to this impossibility--readers who attempt analyses beyond the point of sentiment, beyond the point of meaning. The ambiguity already present within the writer is immediately transferred to the reader, though it may arguably take a different form of presentation. In this thought, each work becomes a singular item provoking a collection of varying associations and meanings, impossible to understand or chart. The comfort in this impossibility, I find, is that I do not approach poems seeking understanding. On the contrary, I rather enjoy the mystery of words and their arrangements without particular and rigorous dissecting for meaning. These words, and the poems themselves (and could we not extend to consider the lives of the authors as well?), are inherently meaningful. Arguably, they may also be meaningless. Who decides and why should they?
The necessity occurs within this query of decision and analysis. If we are to study poetry we must be aware, to an extent, of the author's intents or some other reference for contextualism. (Though, this has ofttimes 'ruined' the significance of a poem for me [see Whitman's historical bit...I rather liked it without the historical implications] for me on a sensational level.) I do not think it wholly necessary to remove a poem from its sensations; in truth the act is rather impossible. We must, however, admit, for the sake of study, that the focus cannot remain completely upon sensation lest the political, social, activist, &c. type messages be lost or less powerful without some sort of contextualization within history. (Of course I'm aware there are theories about this but I'm far too lazy for that can of worms.)
The art of poetry is, finally, a reconciliation of sensation and intent. This proves difficult and suggests possibly an inevitable loss of meaning. Poetry embodies the beautifully humbling attempts to express and describe emotional and significant sensations that may be placed in a context of relevance to readers.

Well, that's what I gave my professor after 10 minutes of free writing. I'm much too lazy to expand upon this or proofread it. Mary's response:

"Rigorously explained, deeply lived...starting with experiences of the senses rather than ideas. Certainly hits me where I live."

I don't know. That's just what she said.



04 April 2009

Reflections of an Unsuspecting Saturday.


As I sit here in my gentleman's countryside cap and nonchalantly puff this unlit Black&Mild, I realize that I was meant to be great. However, I am content with the assumption of greatness hovering above me, regardless of the fact that it is unlikely my name will one day be anything more than a narcissistic screen name for various internet profiles. Much in the same way I would rather not light this cigar; it was destined for accomplished smolders, but it shall remain on the brink of potentiality. I am happy to hear the crackles of my phonograph on this Peter, Paul and Mary record. I cannot help but think of the journeys of things around me. Where has this record been? Whose hands have held it and contemplated the world, much as I have done of late. What ears have heard the sorrows of injustice and the happy melodies of memories? The underlying breaks in the notes bring these questions to the forefront of my mind. I am comforted that I may pick up my guitar and strum the most elementary of chords. My fingers form the shape, and I hear the low voice of Em and find understanding in its timbre. It is basal want of discovery in which I am inclined to believe. I suppose in this searching and insatiable way I have been able to share my most indelible silent discoveries with only myself and the atmosphere that will eventually lead to every creature and abiotic force derived or imagined. I am glad to be wearing this cap from Dublin, though I am not a gentleman. I have recently rediscovered the magic of a well worn dictionary, and at this moment I have no less than five about me. Each holding within them the keys to communication of ideas, emotions. This morning I saw deer in our yard. I felt terribly unsettled to be at the same moment so unconnected and inextricably bound to this creature, and my eyes wandered the trees and stream. The birds, the squirrels, the lives I couldn't see beneath me. I contemplated these things, yet thought nothing of consequence at all. Who am I to think that my assumptions and considerations are worth the air upon which they float?

I am happy to write to invisible readers, and draw for imagined viewers. I revel in my tastes, knowing that I will never be able to relate everything I've ever felt to anyone because I cannot myself comprehend its consequence upon anything. I am happy to be speechless when words are needed, to be absentminded when I must focus on today. I am happy to be here, or there, without a care and a million sorrows, because I am overjoyed to simply be.

29 March 2009

Today's PostSecret.

I am so glad to see that someone else can say this. I have a thing for band directors. Haha. To Teeple, or not to Teeple? Caw Caw-Caw Caw. Special times.

It's just something about a man that knows music--haha. This knowledge provides so much insight into his personal, emotional, social and intellectual habits. I like it :)

28 March 2009

D-Day: Operation Duggarization!

So, let me just say that this trip definitely ranks up there on the "most enjoyable/difficult to describe/this is really weird but would do it again" list :) Hayley and I went to none other than Springdale, Arkansas, to stalk out our favourite family: The Duggars. The preparation for this journey is equally as important as the trip itself. Hayley and I "immersed ourself immensely in the Duggar culture"---that is to say, we got religion. Haha. Certain literature is essential to such an adventure, namely Intended for Pleasure: Sex Technique and Sexual Fulfillment in Christian Marriage as well as the Duggar book. Preliminary efforts also include fully equipped outfits of: denim jumpers, gardening hats, an (what we will say) aluminum alloy promise ring, faithfully enscribed with "True Love Waits" and roses, gaudy cross pins, ribbed socks that fold down (no other way!) and some canvas keds. Each piece of the ensemble really comes together to provide the wholesome Christian girl outfit. To me, the Keds really say, "Gee, I think I'll just not think about things anymore, get married, and have kids. It is, after all, my duty." Thankfully, I took those right off once we returned home. (That's right, we wore those babies home.) Here's a shot pre-adventure, you know, Hayley assimilating herself with the culture:

On the way there, many idiosyncratic and inexplainable joys were shared; I will do my best to convey such things. Without question we listened to ample amounts of Coldplay and quirky independent rock things that we have come to share :) Another treat, moreso universally understood than Of Montreal's "Tim I Wish You Were Born a Girl", was also eventually located within the blasted and immediately annoying town of Conway:

A Dairy Queen. Thank you, Jesus Lord.


See how annoying Conway is:


Only after dipped cones were in hand could we continue with our mission.

Now, on the way, we were, unsurprisingly, trafficking drugs. This simple and easily expected fact shouldn't shock any of you. I mean, the Springdale police were very convinced. After being pulled over for the mortal sin of following too closely (we transgressed because unfortunately at this time we weren't wearing the magic dress of obedience), it is only natural for the extremely eager police of Springdale to assume that we were, in fact, hiding a kilo in our Girl Scout tents. The police were very thourough, with a search lasting quite some time. We were extrememly suspicious travellers, with an apparently overcomplicated story and "no specific destination." Now, who really wants to take the time to explain this story to a policeman: "Oh, hello, officer. You see, I'm from Tennessee, she from Texas. How do we know each other? Well, we work at a summer camp in Missouri. Where are we coming from? Memphis. No, neither of us live there, but we were visiting Grandma. No, no, we aren't planning to go to any clubs. What is in Springdale? Ummm....welll...... (At this point the officer stuck his head in to look around and inevitably saw the wonderful literature,

so I was pressed to tell him that we did, in fact, LOVE the Duggars, and just wanted to have a look around. Whew. Complicated. The officer even told me what road they lived on; I thought that odd. Apparently our story with Grandma wasn't enough because they kept trying to see if we had "been in some clubs" or why we weren't in Ft. Lauderdale. ?. Haha. It was extremely entertaining, but we did have to keep our distance, and properly measure the lengths betwixt each car depending on our speed. Hayley never forgot.





Lodging: an integral part of any journey. We were blessed enough (God was really watching out for us!) to stay at perhaps the shadiest establishment in Springdale, the Springdale Inn, with Restauran attached! Room 141, how I love you. Before we could snuggle in, we went to an authentic mexican eatery. To be honest, I think the whole damn town could pass for authentic mexican (NOT Hispanic, as we later debated)....why? Why were there so many Mexicans in ....Arkansas? Befuddling. Why would there be a legitimate drug problem in...Springdale? I just don't understand. Eventually we were able to overcome many things: a fear of car burglary, staring beady eyes, and our ignorance of the Spanish language, and ordered some tasty chicken taquito thing.



After a wonderful night of spooning and life discussions in room 141, Hayley and I modelled our garb rather wonderfully.



We found the birthing place of many Duggars:



....And returned to Champion Motorcars, Josh's (eldest Duggar son) car lot.


In case you didn't know, running a used car lot is deeply flowing through Duggar veins. I would like to take this opportunity to define what we are really talking about here, to help you grasp the ponderosity of what I'm describing.



DICTIONARY LOOKUP
Champion (ch ampēən): "A person who has defeated or surpassed all rivals in a competition."



Motorcar (mōtərˌkär): "A road vehicle, typically with four wheels, powered by an internal combustion engine or electric motor and able to carry a limited number of people.





....clarity provided by Champion Motorcars, http://www.championnwa.com/aboutus.html....




Moving on.....



The Duggars actually live in Tontitown, so, with heavy hearts and saddened, glassy eyes, we turned away from glorious Springdale. I miss you to this day.



In Tontitown.......






On Arbor Acres Avenue....









Next to a strange and indistinct factory of some kind....









You will find THE DUGGARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!






Glorious, exuberant, overjoyed were we. Some photographic proof:




Personally, I was extremely surprised at how close they live to the road, or any other people, for that matter. Also, extremely thankful :D

As the Lord hath taught us, what with the apple eating and all, all good things must come to an end, and thus we left the home. I did think I saw Josh and Anna driving, but upon closer following, they turned the wrong way. Damn.


Hayley and I did the righteous and more entertaining thing, as we are wont to do, and remained in our garb until arrival to Memphis. This turned out to be an especially rewarding decision, thanks to the old man at Chic-fil-A, who commented, "Well, Ladies, those are some nice summer dresses." Yeah, it was totally worth getting those stray crumbs falling through the button-up front to keep that jumper on.



Hayley is the queen of driving at strange hours to do awkward things and I love her.

These, my friends, are the faces of happy people, expressions that may be worn only be two stalker-ish, slightly neurotic and amazing adventurers. :)

And thus you have read the most complete documentation of the journey that I may tell.

13 March 2009

I bought this chicken...

And I want to be a star! I bought the toy chicken (as seen in the video) a few days ago. I have grand adventures planned for us. This video is not very good and I am in no way satisfied, but it serves as a premise to greatness, like all tacky things tend to lend themselves. Other than this, not much is new, really. I continue to fill out gobs of paperwork relating to my future at the glorious Earlham College (yes, I will be a Quaker...). I am also in the heat of passion planning for a most splendid adventure down to Springdale, AR. Now, if you have a habit of "checking in" on particular famous people (as I do) you will note this to be the home of a certain Dugger family. Hayley and I are VERY excited. Many great things have been tossed around: purity rings, denim jumpers, ridiculous bangs, and test driving cars from Champion Motorcars :) Fantastic times. I am also responsible for the literature we will need to engross ourselves in this sub-culture known as people who adamently (and creepily) love Jesus to an undefinable extent. Examples? Well, a proper Bible, of course, as well as Intended for Pleasure, a guide for couples on their wedding night. It should be a most....educational journey. Anywho, watch the video:


28 February 2009

....Superman!


Wow! Today was quite an adventure! Cheyenne and I went to Paducah to look for me a prom dress...found one, love it! When we were leaving I may have turned the wrong way on I-24, thus we found ourselves in Illinois, the Land of Lincoln. Before we had a chance to turn around we went across that blasted Ohio River bridge...it was then that I saw the sign for Metropolis. Now, being as learned as I am on the ever-pertinent subject as overly sized novelty pieces, I immediately began a fit of excitement and hysteria caused by our increasing proximity to the Giant Superman Statue! Hooray! Yes, we went the six miles to the bustling village of Metropolis and found the man himself and a kitschy little "museum" and novelty shop. It was very reminiscent of Nostalgiaville, also conveniently located off a well travelled interstate around this area :) We had lots and lots of fun getting lost and taking pictures with Superman. I even bought some Kryptonite! So cool!

11 February 2009

Current Obsession II.



Ok, I'm completely hooked. I've known this song for a while, but just recently "rediscovered" it, you could say. I looked up the chords a few days ago and have been playing along compulsively. Haha. Good stuff.